Friday, February 10, 2012

Out with the old...

Well, my day started off super early (5:00) with a very happy 2 year old jumping on my bed telling me to "wake up". It was cute, but too early. The morning continued with getting the munchkins dressed and ready for school. My friend Jacob texted me told me I should go to Chick-fil-a for breakfast. I quickly took his advice and made a trip before I drove home to visit with my mom and dad. Stopping at Chick-fil-a was a fantastic choice! I had my big fatty coke and rocked out to Adele all the way home....WONDERFUL! When I got home I received a magnificent 90 minute massage and it was a little piece of heaven. I always say this, but, when I grow up and become rich, I am going to pay someone to either play with my hair for an hour each day or just scratch my back. My massage was beyond amazing and so needed! I ended the evening by going to a birthday party. It was a fun Friday. When I got home I proceeded to pack up a bin of memories. I spent 7 wonderful years with someone I love deeply and tonight I put those memories in box and put them away. I cried... a lot, but it needed to happen. One step closer to "moving on" as people say. However, not sure moving on is an option any time soon, but we shall see! You never know what the Lord has planned. It was very sad to put away things that have meant everything to me, but it's also unfair for me to just keep them out, hurting myself even more. So I end by saying, "Out with the old... but not sure about the new yet." :) Looking forward to a great weekend at home! This song is off Mandisa's album "What if We Were Real". The song is called, "Just Cry". It is a great reminder that there is nothing wrong with our tears and the Lord sees our tears and knows our pain. My favorite line in the song says, "Life is hard, and days get long- you gotta know God can handle honesty, so feel the things you're feeling, name your fears and doubts. Don't stuff your shame and sadness, loneliness and anger. Let it out, let it out, let it out. It doesn't mean you don't trust him." All too often crying is a sign of weakness. From someone who cries... a lot... crying is a place where we are vulnerable and in need for healing. Sometimes you just have to cry!

1 comment:

  1. I didn't know you were doing that tonight. I'm proud of you! I'm sure it was so hard, but you are so strong!! Love you and see you Sunday! :)